My Hungry Ass Eating The Snacks Kurogiri Gives Me After Saying I Wasn't Hungry And Skipping Dinner (I

In my main bnha reality the 4th of April is my birthday, so happy birthday to me! :)

Me and the League Of Villains reuniting after the war is over like:

I've never done something like this- hold on, my playlist isn't ready for this-

Also I'm not tagging anyone because on this site I've only talked to literally one person, so I'm not going to tag random people LMAO-

Year Zero - GHOST

Uncanny - GHOST (not the same GHOST)

Rises the moon - Liana Flores

I Bet On Losing Dogs - Mitski

Killers With The Cross - Powerwolf

ODD FUTURE - UVERworld

This looks wacky as fuck- my favourite songs don't start with any of these letters😭🙏🏻

Username Song Title Game

Choose a song title for each letter of your username and tag the same number of people

Thank you for tagging me @desert-fern! 💖

Fair warning: half of my picks are from the 90s because that was my formative era. I like stuff I can sing to or play the guitar to, so there’s a lot of rock and pop…

Drop Dead Gorgeous [1997] – Republica Just a Girl [1995] – No Doubt A Thousand Years [2011] – Christina Perri Ready Now [2019] – Dodie Iris [1998] – Goo Goo Dolls November Rain [1992] – Guns N’ Roses Speechless [2009] – Lady Gaga - Creep [1992] – Radiohead You Could Make a Killing [1995] – Aimee Mann All Along the Watchtower [1968] – Jimi Hendrix Rumour Has It [2011] – Adele Empire State of Mind (Part II) Broken Down [2010] – Alicia Keys

Now for the usual totally unnecessary commentary on my choices:

We’ve got four British artists on there (well, I did grow up here), but it’s mostly stuff from across the pond. That said, ‘Empire State of Mind (Part II) Broken Down’ was never released in the US, but it was over here, and it was huge (hence it’s on my Spotify master playlist!).

There are songs from four soundtracks (Scream, Twilight, City of Angels and Cruel Intentions), proving that movies make my brain remember songs better.

Also, I’m currently rewatching Battlestar Galactica, so I had to include Hendrix 😎.

Hmm, who to tag... okay, 12 of my loveliest moots coming up:

@ak-vintage @bitchwitch1981 @burntheedges @cas-readsandwrites @fromthedeskoftheraven

@ishabull @joelalorian @magpiepills @mermaidgirl30 @saradika

@secretelephanttattoo @sixhours

TAG! Okay, it’s your turn 💖

is anyone else unable to listen to music normally after you found out about shifting? i cannot be normal about a song, i always gotta relate it to one of my drs.

whether it's a song that i claimed for my singer dr or a song that reminds me of my life in my dr or my relationship with someone in my dr, i always imagine at least one dr when i listen to music.

I WANT TO THANK WHOEVER FIRST CAME UP WITH SCRIPTING AND SHIT BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHERE I'D BE RIGHT NOW!!!

(I basically lore dump about my main bnha reality in this post- but only about something really specific that kinda touches other things, so yeah-)

Ok- so yesterday I was getting all excited for shifting to my main bnha reality and all, like one does before going to bed and doing their method. At some point I focused more on the future in the postwar, since I still have to script it properly, until something hit me:

We're all gonna die. Plus I'm not only one of the youngest in the LOV, but I also have All For One's quirk, which means I also have that quirk I can't remember the name of that stops aging as long as it's active. So I'm probably going to see them all die.

In the cr, whenever I think about it I feel like absolute shit, so I don't even want to imagine how I'd feel about it in my dr.

SO WHAT IF I SCRIPT THAT WE BECOME IMMORTAL?? And obviously I also script that we're going to be happy about our endless life + we never get tired of it + we always find something to do (and even repeating some things doesn't get boring) + we live peacefully (so people don't bother us- like- in the future they'll know we've existed for a really long time, but they won't constantly be harassing us for whatever reason, they leave us be) + etc.

(actually, if you think about it, me and the LOV being immortal is good for society- if they try anything to make society bad again we WILL kick their fucking asses.)

So while I was brushing my teeth before going to bed yesterday I started thinking about how I'd make this make sense in my dr and how it'd happen. This is what I came up with ("why did you decide to make this post?" because I'm losing my mind, it helps me organise my thoughts and if someone wants to "steal" this for a similar dr then be my guest-):

(main bnha reality lore dump, let's gooo-)

All For One, during the time he temporarily ruled Japan, was able to get his dirty hands on an immortality quirk. This quirk is a one use quirk the effect of which can't be reversed. So he could have became immortal forever.

He never ends up using it for a number of reasons, so I'll still have it after the war.

The first reason why he hasn't used it is because he wanted to keep it in case of emergency, maybe when he was close to death or something similar.

Then the day of his death came. I was 14 and he was fighting All Might somewhere and he got killed.

"Why didn't he use that quirk?"

One thing about the All For One in my dr (I'm pretty sure it's like this in canon as well, but whatever) is that he's a complete narcissist with a god complex. He consistently believes to be better than anyone. So during his fight against All Might he was 100% sure he was going to win. But then he didn't. So he still has the immortality quirk.

The second reason why he hasn't used it is because of his plans for me.

All For One plans years in advance. When he got a hold of five year old me he had different plans. Plan A consisted of using my body as a vessel for Yoichi's vestige, once he got One For All back. This also explains why he made sure I kept living a certain lifestyle and, as a result, ended up looking very similar to Yoichi.

But then he got killed by All Might.

This started plan B, which is the plan he'll stick to until the end. His body was damaged and using the immortality quirk would have been a waste, so now the new plan consists of using my body for HIS vestige. Then he'll use the immortality quirk.

But it'll not work out in his favour.

So the war starts and now he's literally in two places at once: his original body and his vestige in mine.

He'll give me the original All For One through the surgery and he's going to have a copy. But All For One and Daruma won't be able to duplicate the immortality quirk, so the original and only existing one is inside the original All For One quirk, which I have.

(The idea that they won't be able to duplicate it came form the fact that the strange teleportation quirk All For One has is a failed duplication of Kurogiri's quirk, so the failed duplication of the immortality quirk doesn't sound too far fetched.)

During the war his original body will die after he'll rewind himself back in time thanks to the drug made by Overhaul with Eri's DNA, leaving only his vestige inside me.

But he won't use the immortality quirk. Not only does my vestige's presence interfere with the proper use of All For One's quirk, but if he could use the immortality quirk while my vestige still exists it'd become immortal as well. And trust me, he does NOT want to share a body with me, he'd rather fucking die.

Also keep in mind that All For One, in my dr, could EASILY win the war, but he thinks so highly of himself that he's going to underestimate EVERYTHING and EVERYONE and he'll miserably fail.

So All For One's vestige goes down, everyone else survives and this will mark the beginning of a new era.

If you read the intro to this dr then you know the drill: shit changes for the better, the world will be amazing and bla bla bla.

(I don't remember if I wrote this in the intro, but One For All doesn't cease to exist after the war. I'll give it back to Deku, since during the war he passes it to me to get rid of All For One's vestige- and I'll still have All For One's quirk.)

"So how do you and your friends become immortal?"

In the postwar, since I'm now the holder of the original All For One quirk, I'll dedicate quite some time to properly make All For One's quirk my own. But keep in mind that the immortality quirk still goes unused.

(Keep in mind that for my dr I scripted quite some things about how All For One's quirk works and other things like that- I also scripted about vestiges and other peculiar things.)

(Also, in case I'll talk about it in the future [aka I want to yap about it now]: in my dr, the places in which vestiges are found are generically called 'Vestige Realms'. Deku's Vestige Realm, the one within One For All, is called 'Vestige Room' because it's supposed to resemble the room in which Yoichi was trapped in by All For One. My Vestige Realm, the one that formed after the surgery, is called 'Vestige World' because in the middle of it there's my childhood house surrounded by a city and it seemingly goes on forever. All For One's Vestige Realm is either 'Vestige Realm' because it's the first/original one, or 'The Black Hole' because it's literally a black hole. The reason why I decided to give names to all of them is because me and Deku are going to talk about it A LOT- and eventually we're going to tell everyone the truth about everything [so everything about All For One, what's One For All, etc], so this makes it a bit easier.)

The way we ALL become immortal, which shouldn't really be possible, is kind of strange. But I didn't know what else to script and to be honest I don't really give a shit, so fuck it we ball.

It's your typical "oopsie! Kinda lost control of my quirk for a second there, sorry guys!" kind of situation.

The fact that I accidentally activate a quirk within All For One isn't that strange, especially if I haven't trained that quirk much. So me accidentally using the immortality quirk, which cannot be trained and can only be activated once, isn't that far fetched.

The unusual and nonsensical part is the fact that everyone gets the permanent effect.

The best thing I could script is this: remember that quirk All For One used on an unconscious Kurogiri to forcefully activate his quirk? Yeah, it involves that quirk.

All For One used a quirk called Rivet Stab to touch Kurogiri from a distance and then used the other quirk to activate Kurogiri's. And this is basically what will happen.

Rivet Stab, at least in my dr, becomes an extremely versatile quirk when mixed with others stored within All For One's quirk. This makes it a bit of a pain in the ass to properly train.

So after some thinking I figured that Rivet Stab getting out of control and the immortality quirk activating, mixed with the DNA changing nature of All For One's quirk (if I start yapping about how All For One's quirk works in my dr I'll never shut up), is the most likely scenario.

So here you have it! How me and the LOV will become immortal and live an amazing, peaceful life!

I'm gonna be honest. My original plan for shifting was to achieve immortality because I'm terrified of death, so sharing it with my found family in a peaceful environment sounds so fucking good!

But I'll also make a new script for a separate reality, kind of like a waiting room, where it's just our immortal selves. Because fuck death, that's why!

(also it's my brother's birthday and my mum is making a cake. It's literally my dr self's favourite cake. I'm fucking winning.)

I love making memes of my dr self absolutely demolishing All For One😘🥰😍

(I'm currently sick and have nothing better to do)

MLP DR SLAYYYYYYYYYYY ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

IXBSSHHSSVSHGSVSVS-

LITTLE ME ALWAYS WANTED TO BE FRIENDS WITH THE MAIN 6, IT'S INSANE-

So don't mind me shifting as a cute, little pony and be a new element of friendship-

BUT I'M SO UPSET BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW I WANT TO LOOK LIKE IN MY DR, I SPONTANEOUSLY COMBUST EVERY TIME I TRY TO THINK OF SOMETHING GOOD, HELP😭🙏🏻

I'm trying to continue writing the draft which is basically a remake of the intro to my main bnha dr, but every time I come online and try to write something down I'm just unable to do so. I've been thinking about what happened the last time I tried to shift to that dr, it happened about a week ago I think.

Basically I was lying in bed, visualising my dr bedroom and eventually I fell asleep. When I woke up I was still here, but it was pretty early in the morning (around 3am if I remember correctly), so I began my lazy method again.

While I was visualising I felt something- and it wasn't pleasant at all.

Basically when I do my lazy method I just imagine that I'm my dr self and I'm laying in bed in my dr bedroom. But that can get kinda boring so, since I scripted that eventually Kurogiri will come into my room to wake me up, I prefer to imagine the same thing but Kurogiri is already there. I don't know why, it helps me concentrate more for some reason. Usually when I'm particularly sleepy and cozy I can't help myself but think about him sitting at the edge of my bed and running his hand through my hair (words cannot describe how much I like that- it's an amazing feeling- it makes me feel so cozy and loved😭🙏🏻💕)

So now you might be thinking "did you actually feel his hand on your head while you were trying to shift?"

Unfortunately no- I really wish that was it, but it wasn't.

I was doing my method, like usual, and suddenly I felt a hand touching the left side of my body on top of my blanket. It basically tapped my body from my hip to my shoulder and then once on my mouth which was covered by the blanket. When I tell you I was TERRIFIED it's an understatement- I literally thought someone was in the house. My first reaction was to pretend to be asleep and my heart was RACING. Eventually I said fuck it and did a reality check (pinched my nose and tried to breathe) just to make sure I wasn't dreaming.

The worst part is that it wasn't just a feeling, I literally perceived a hand- specifically a left hand (don't ask me why a left hand, but when that happened I could only picture a left hand for some reason).

Kurogiri would NEVER touch me like that, NEVER!!

So I know for a fact that wasn't him and I wasn't feeling something from my dr. I know I probably was just half asleep and feeling weird shit, but it's not the first time I wake up in the middle of the night and go back to sleep feeling like that AND THAT NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE- and coincidentally it happened right while I was doing my method.

I don't know, but whenever I think back to it, and I try to connect it to my dr for some reason (the reason being I'm delusional), I can only think of All For One- HAVE I EVER TOLD YOU GUYS ABOUT HOW MUCH I HATE THIS MAN? THE SHEER HATRED I FEEL FOR THIS POOR EXCUSE OF A HUMAN BEING IS ONE OF THE MANY THINGS THAT MOTIVATE ME TO SHIFT TO MY MAN BNHA DR- I GENUINELY CANNOT WAIT FOR HIS DEATH, WORDS CANNOT DESCRIBE HOW HAPPY I WILL BE ONCE THAT HAPPENS-

So yeah, I'm kinda going insane for what happened and now my hatred for All For One has reached a new level- can't believe my dr self will (temporary, thank fuck-) think of this man as a saviour and some kind of role model and shit-

I don't know why the hate I feel for him motivates me to shift, but it's so funny because whenever something bad yet silly happens in the cr I just pretend that's him trying to sabotage me and I'm like "bitch ass motherfucker that's not gonna work, I'm shifting and kicking your fucking ass💪🏻😼"

All For One I hope you shit your pants and have a horrible day overall!!!😘🥰😍

Ever since I joined Shiftblr and started doing methods I've noticed a few things. These are things like feeling slightly detached from here and feeling closer to the people in my dr.

Something that particularly caught my attention was how whenever I do my method I feel extremely tired, both physically and mentally. It only seems to happen when I do my method. The day after I always find myself trying to understand where I am for a moment- I don't know, it's pretty weird, but also so interesting.

But I actually made this post to talk about something that happened yesterday.

I was listening to music while thinking about my dr, specifically my main bnha reality. Reminder that I'm Shigaraki in this dr- I feel like this is important to know or else the post doesn't really make that much sense.

I was switching between a silly game on my phone and Tumblr – I was really bored and didn't know what to do – while I was basically giggling and kicking my feet at the thought of waking up in my dr and give my big brother a big hug because OH MY GOD, KUROGIRI DESERVES ALL THE LOVE IN THE WORLD!!

Lately whenever I think about my dr I just want a big hug from the people in my dr. I mainly think about Kurogiri, who in the present of my dr I've known for about 11 years. I also think a lot about Spinner. I don't know him yet in my dr, but he'll be my s/o and I genuinely cannot wait!!

So I was just chilling in bed, listening to music and visualising while giggling and kicking my feet, thinking about how amazing it's going to be to finally be with the people I love the most, when suddenly something pops up in my mind.

I don't recall having similar thoughts pop up in my mind ever since I started to take my shifting journey more seriously, so it took me by surprise.

I literally went from childishly thinking about hugging my big brother to thinking something along the lines of "I wonder how a hug from Sensei would be like."

...

WHAT THE FUCK???

When I tell you I was shaken it's an understatement.

As soon as I realised what the fuck popped into my mind I literally felt a heavy weight on my chest- I literally had to calm myself down because I was starting to breathe a little strange.

What scared me wasn't how I was feeling, it was whatever the fuck that thought was.

In the cr I know damn well how much of a horrible being All For One is. I know the truth about what happened to me – which was all because of him – and I know everything he has done and everything he will do. In my dr, at least in the present, I don't. In the present of my dr I like him, I care about him. At first I'll view this man as my saviour, my mentor- but he never was and never will be any of that.

What the fuck do you mean you'd like a hug from All For One?

Genuinely, what. the. fuck?

I've been feeling like shit since yesterday because of it- I still feel that weight on my chest, although the intensity seems to come and go (and luckily sometimes it's not there at all- which is whenever I'm not thinking about my dr.)

This is so fucking trippy to me. Here I genuinely cannot wait for that man's death while, in the present of my dr, my dr self can't wait to...I don't know- simply see him in person, because ever since he got killed by All Might and revived by Daruma he hasn't really been able to physically be there and we haven't been able to go to him either.

The thought of wanting any kind of affection from him is absolutely disgusting for me in the cr, while in the present of my dr I would feel honoured to experience anything like that from him.

(I keep specifying 'present of my dr' because in the future I'll know the truth and I'll hate him to death. Just to be clear)

And do you want to know another fucked up thing that happened yesterday?

This time it was morning. I was on the bus, making my way to school while listening to music and, again, thinking about my dr.

I was half asleep and I was easily zoning out.

And then suddenly my random thoughts get interrupted by another thought about All For One.

The thing that worries me a little bit is that this time it was 'a scene'. But the not so pleasant thing about it is that considering what I scripted it shouldn't be possible in my dr.

Lately I've actually been considering adding an 'arc' to my script. And this scene enters perfectly in this 'arc'.

Here's a piece of information before I tell you what this scene was about:

Thinking of canon bnha, you know that place within Deku's mind- or Shigaraki's mind- in which the vestiges are stored and you can interact with them? I genuinely do not remember if it has a canon name and if there is I cannot seem to find it. Basically in my dr they're generally called 'Vestige Realms'. All For One's, a literal black hole, is called The Black Hole or Vestige Realm (generic because it's the first and original one). Deku's called 'Vestige Room' because it's supposed to resemble the room in which Yoichi was trapped by All For One. Mine is called 'Vestige World' because, aside from being relatively large and even having a whole city in it (in the middle of which there's my childhood house), it seemingly goes on forever. Basically mine seems the more realistic, the closest to a real life place. The reason why me and Deku will give these places names is because we'll be talking about them a lot together- and also because One For All and All For One (the quirk) will not disappear after the war, so we might as well get comfortable with them.

So what happens in this scene?

You know how All For One's vestige didn't go back in time like his real body did? Well, forget that, in this scene his face and hair were there- which actually make sense considering what I was considering to script.

Basically me and him were in the Vestige World, but the specific zone we were in wasn't part of the city. I remember my first thought about this was that it was a 'new area' that only generated after the war. Again, this makes sense for what I was thinking of scripting.

I remember a big garden-like place. The grass was a bright, healthy green and I could see a few white flowers scattered here and there, probably daisies- my dr self loves daisies actually, so that was nice. And yes, this still makes sense for what I wanted to script.

I was wearing what I'll last wear during the war, so basically just a ragged pair of black pants. On the other hand, All For One was wearing the white, red and black 'robe' he basically steals during the war. And yes, this still makes sense.

Do you want to know the 'best' part? The 'funny' part of all this is that I was on the ground facing upwards. All For One was kneeling on top of me while literally choking me with his right hand and keeping my right hand still with the other.

I remember he was extremely angry and was yelling something. I have no idea what he was saying, but I have a feeling it was something about how I belong to him, I have to do everything he says and that he's going to take control of my body once and for all. Which makes sense for what I was thinking of scripting.

The actual funny part is that, if I actually script the arc I wanted to, he'll fail miserably for the second time.

So you know what? Sure. I'm scripting the arc I had in mind in my dr, I want to see him fail for the second time in a row. I want to see him suffer a second time.

God, how I hate this bitch. He's been plaguing my thoughts lately and I don't like it.

Real😔

But I'm only doing it because I scripted a happy ending that makes it worth it, I would never do it otherwise

I love making myself miserable in my drs, god