This Is Several Months Old But Like French Speaking Fruitcake Man Come On

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Op I'm so sorry I rambled in your tags and reached the tag limit uhh yeah don't read all that--

i think my pea sized brain finally understood ugetsu and aki’s relationship. akihiko before meeting ugetsu was a person who was confident in his music ( classical ) but when he met ugetsu , the immense talent that he had , made him feel inferior and he began to doubt his own abilities but at the same time he fell for ugetsu , he thought if he could carry the burden ugetsu had been shouldered upon he could be with him , have him , for himself and that way not only would he be connected to music but also be with ugetsu . around this point of time they became emotionally attached to each other to the point where ugetsu became someone irreplaceable to aki ( remember akihiko’s parents divorced and he had no place to go and ugetsu’s offer to stay with him was like a manna thrown upon aki in a desert ; ugetsu became his ultimate refugee , his home ) .

the relationship also could have been simple but no . it was now ugetsu’s turn to realise that he was being way too dependent on aki , which he started to repel , because for him music was everything , as a deeply sensitive and insecure person who was unable to express himself music was his only way to let out his loneliness but he realised how much he and akihiko being together was suffocating , cause he felt he was pulling aki down and because he loved akihiko sm he wanted him to free of this bond , ( and something i realized after sm over analysis ugetsu clearly draws line between him and other people not because he’s a genius and had superiority complex but because some people just don’t like ppl crossing that inner boundary of theirs , invading them , the part they never want anyone to know or see and akihiko was slowly starting to invade him - his deepest parts ) where the two of them can be free , and hence came those bitter words “ let’s break up ” .

when you love someone sm that your entire world revolves around them and one day they suddenly tell you to break off it’s like your world suddenly stops spinning . it’s like banging on the door of an empty room ; like ripping off an old bandage that you never cared to open and digging on the scar . the relationship only gets more complicated from here on when they start fooling around with other people , ugetsu clearly wanting to cut off from akihiko starts having flings asking aki on purpose to not come because he has someone new and it’s a sign to go already ! which agitates akihiko a lot , someone whom you thought had accepted you and had wanted you for who you were doesn’t want you anymore , aki feels helplessly rejected and used by ugetsu , he starts to think that he was the only one who was emotionally invested in this relationship and that is why he refers to his first love as unrequited and one sided. having no place to stay and considering how aki didn’t stay in touch with his parents he starts doing odd jobs , doing unimaginable things ( flings with money ? ) and most of all the only way he thought he could ever even make ugetsu be disappointed was by switching the genre of his music , he starts playing drums making it seem like ’ if you’re moving on so will i ’ .

bUT the relationship gets more and more complicated oof it’s like playing snakes and ladder , you keep rolling the dice and you’re close to the finish and poof you get bitten and you’re back to square one , it becomes a loop from here on not letting go of each other and haruki comes into play somewhere here ( and because this is solely only about akigetsu , not gonna elaborate all that much on akiharu) . when aki realizes how much he loves being with haruki because not only does he begins to enjoy music he starts to think better of himself and wants better of himself too and after the horrendous mistake he inflicted upon haruki he wants to be a person who deserves him , worthy of his love and when he confronts to ugetsu about this, ugetsu gets irritated by how how akihiko wants to abandon their relationship but nevertheless at last mafuyu’s music serves as an ointment on a wound , it provides warmth to the frozen and cold telling it’s okay , okay to let go , okay to move on being hurt or having found someone . IT’S OKAY™ .

Otome dissection is a portrait of an empty person entering a relationship not because it makes them happy or it makes them better, but to have someone be the dump of their problems with no intention of actually solving it. The person is empty, and she is desperate to feel something, hence the first lines,

Let's play maiden dissection!

Don't we all want some excitement to get our hearts pumping?

She (the pov person) calls their partner, trying to connect to them without actually wanting to say something.

Good evening, is now a good time?

I didn't really have anything specific to say, but

Now there's this and that and an "it's alright" comes to mind

Without you, none of that matters

But the last line is offputting. If one is in the company of a person they cherish, the conventional phrase is "with you, none of that matters." Almost as if the purpose of connecting with their partner is merely to dump problems to them.

She is asking to be "dissected" because she would never open her issues herself. The first prechorus establishes it clearly.

This disease, the whole package

I'll send it to you as an attachment

I don't wanna go so far as to share all the things that cause me pain

I just wanna run away from this love

The lyric 「いきたくない」 in the chorus is already unclear in itself, being written in hiragana. It is left to us if she's saying she does not want to live (生きたくない), does not want to die (逝きたくない) or does not want to climax (イきたくない). On its own, いきたくない could also mean "I don't want to go." I think it was purposely ambiguous because she wants us to dissect what she wants to say.

The music video shows us the girl dancing with a skeleton. Some interpret it as her dancing with death, but I think it represents the partner who she dumps her problems to.

Only the skeleton remains of the partner because they've given everything to the "singer." Not only does the partner's bones remain, the bones are even fragmented.

They've opened themselves up while she remains fully human because she would not risk being vulnerable. She keeps the skin, the mask, not even a layer coming off.

At some point, the partner eventually distances themself from her and she takes it badly. The music video shows a progression from her making a phone call,

To holding a stringed cup (where it is unsure if the partner even receives the message),

To a mere hand acting as a telephone.

She is desperate on maintaining the relationship even if it does no good.

Returning to the skeleton representing the partner's state, a blink-and-you-miss-it moment happens near the end that shows the skeleton as a whole figure and witnesses all her self-destructive behavior.

However, being with her broke the skeleton (the partner) apart.

Now without a person that could make her feel - pain, shame, or anything, she succumbs to emptiness and decides to end herself. Lyrically, nothing changes and she goes back to the shell of void that she is. Visually, the music video ends with her in a body bag with a peaceful expression.

dead dove, do not eat!

finally decided to change my user/url to a not shitpost-name yayyyyyyy ((oh man it looks so weird to have it normal; at least it matches my other socials now though))

bye akihiro

A year sure flies by...

love finishing up those late game sidequests and tomes in okami

(Mod Toto) Today is both Saizo and Kaze’s birthday! And since they’re twins I made one of this for both of them! 

Do you think Saizo likes cake or should I prepare myself to get stabbed?

the swordman ever