Do You Ever Think Of That Moment Where Shaw Almost Had Erik, Right Before Erik Grabbed The Helmet Off

x-men: first class, mutant road-trip

Hi !

I just wrote my first Cherik fic on AO3, so if you like sad endings it’s a good fic for you ! but I swear it’s good and worth it !

Here’s the link !

Holy shit, the ideas going through my mind right now 😩

I want you to imagine that Charles and Erik dated during First Class.

I want you to imagine that everyone in the team knew and had no problem with it. That after the satellite dish scene, they kissed.

I want you to imagine that someone in the team (let’s say it’s Sean) had a knack for photography. That he took a picture. That Erik, in a stroke of romanticism took it and wrote on its back.

Now I want you to imagine that, many decades later, Charles has a photograph on the far back of the drawer of his nightstand. That it’s a picture of two young men kissing tenderly with the flora of Westchester on the background. That the words “The point between rage and serenity” are written on its back. That he only takes it out in his worst moments. A reminder that even the worst of sinners have the potential to be God’s favourites.

Why are you imagining this? This never happened. No one had a knack for photography. They never kissed. They never said “I love you”.

Suffer

If you’re a writer, this is a petition. Do something with this before I explode. The clock is ticking.

“What’s your favourite horror movie?”

Oh I don’t know, maybe Erik’s eyes when he realised that his decades of trial and error did nothing to help him against Shaw, and he and everyone he loved would die a pointless death at the hands of the man he swore to never let hurt anyone else again…

Ao3, please come back 🥲

can we finally have the conversation about how erik’s gay montage in apocalypse of charles from first class, telling him that they need him and that he’s necessary is not really what happened? I mean, they did have a conversation in which charles convinced erik to stay & help but erik’s memory added something to what charles was saying.

this is the original scene from x-men: first class and then there’s the scene from erik’s memory in x-men: apocalypse

in first class:

“its not just me you’re walking away from. here you have the chance to be part of something much bigger than yourself. I won’t stop you leaving. I could, but I won’t.”

in apocalypse:

“it’s not just me you’re walking away from. here you have the chance to be part of something much bigger than yourself- and it needs you erik.”

…

I just think it’s beautiful that this is how erik remembered what charles said… I don’t think it was an editing mistake, I truly believe it was on purpose that they used a different scene.

Chapter 4 of my fic brought you the fish boyfriend, so I thought I'd do a quick little drawing to go with it<3

Just because I'm bored and a bottomless pit when it comes to Charles and Erik.

Headcanons!

Starting with Erik.

- he sleeps closest to the door when given the option. Especially in hotel rooms while on their road trip.

- one of the first things he does when entering a room/building is reaches out and feels for all the metal in the room. Then he maps out any possible exits.

- he enjoys a drink, as seen with Charles, but Erik almost never drinks enough to sway him. He has to be in full control of himself. Being drunk means the possibility of making a mistake. So while he enjoys a drink, he often just sips at it to lure those around him into a false sense of comfort.

- in stark opposite of Charles, Erik feels rather comfortable in a cheap motel room. The hard, uncomfortable bed keeps him alert (the whole PTSD scenario where people with PTSD will sleep on the floor because they're afraid of sleeping through danger). He never stays one place for long, so a hotel is perfect for him. The mansion was the first place he began to feel a sense of belonging and comfort in.

- he runs on a rather strict schedule, a creature of habit. He rises early.

- he's very obviously not used to being around people often, especially for anything less than his revenge mission, so he lacks a lot of social etiquette. (This man screams autism to me 🧍) If you're not blunt and straight forward with him, he may not understand your intentions.

- goes hand in hand with the above statement - he's rather shameless. Is perfectly content to strip down Infront of someone else. A body is just a body to him and he has nothing to be ashamed about.

- he takes pride in his appearance, he knows he looks good.

- sex isn't something he thinks about often. He's got a perfectly normal sex drive but sex with other people has usually just been for the purpose of his 'job' or a means to an end. Quick tumbles in the sheets or in dark alleyways and then never to see each other again. So, he has plenty of experience, but he tle and slow is not something he knows.

Charles!

- Addictive personality disorder. I think that's likely a fact rather than a headcanon but I'll throw it in anyways. Substance abuse can be genetic.

- A big part of why Charles is so outwardly kind/generous/forgiving is not just his desire to be loved and accepted- but he wants to be better than his family had been. He is a product of his childhood, but not in a bad way. He wants to break that cycle.

- He isn't nearly as naive or arrogant as people take him for. He's been privy to the darkest, most heinous corners of people's minds. He just chooses to remain optimistic rather than let the cruelties of the world tear him down.

- Charles is a slut™. Very adventurous throughout college. He knows what he wants/likes and he isn't afraid to go after it.

- Before Hank figured out the serum, he genuinely considered ending it all. The humiliation of having no independence/not being able to walk, his heartbreak, his powers, it was all too much. The serum was the only thing that pushed him past those suicidal thoughts.

- A big part of why he lost control over his telepathy after Cuba was because he was in Shaw's head when Erik killed him. He could have simply let go, but, despite not agreeing with Erik's quest for revenge and murder, he wasn't willing to risk Erik getting hurt or missing the opportunity. After that, his fear became overwhelming.

- in DoFP, when Logan asks Hank what happened to Charles, he explains the serum and how he simply takes 'too much'. I could just be misinterpreting the facts of how the serum works- but what are headcanons for? I like to think, if Hank can hide his physical mutation AND still use it, then Charles logically can have both his telepathy and his legs. He simply has an addiction and is too afraid. When it comes time to use his powers again, he knows himself to have addictive personality and to be weak willed. He has to set an example for his students and everyone else too, so he chooses to just eliminate the serum all together. It wasn't worth the risk just to walk.